
Henry David Thoreau
Trip to Saddleback Mountain
from A Week on the Concord and Merrimack Rivers"
I once saw the day break from the top of
Saddle-back Mountain in Massachusetts, above the clouds. As we cannot
distinguish objects through this dense fog, let me tell this story
more at length.
I had come over the hills on foot and alone
in serene summer days, plucking the raspberries by the wayside, and
occasionally buying a loaf of bread at a farmer's house, with a knapsack
on my back which held a few traveller's books and a change of clothing,
and a staff in my hand. I had that morning looked down from the Hoosack
Mountain, where the road crosses it, on the village of North Adams
in the valley three miles away under my feet, showing how uneven
the earth may sometimes be, and making it seem an accident that it
should ever be level and convenient for the feet of man. Putting a little
rice and sugar and a tin cup into my knapsack at this village, I
began in the afternoon to ascend the mountain, whose summit is three
thousand six hundred feet above the level of the sea, and was seven
or eight miles distant by the path. My route lay up a long and spacious
valley called the Bellows, because the winds rush up or down it with violence
in storms, sloping up to the very clouds between the principal range
and a lower mountain. There were a few farms scattered along at different
elevations, each commanding a fine prospect of the mountains to the
north, and a stream ran down the middle of the valley on which near
the head there was a mill. It seemed a road for the pilgrim to enter upon
who would climb to the gates of heaven. Now I crossed a hay-field,
and now over the brook on a slight bridge, still gradually ascending
all the while with a sort of awe, and filled with indefinite expectations
as to what kind of inhabitants and what kind of nature I should come to
at last. It now seemed some advantage that the earth was uneven,
for one could not imagine a more noble position for a farm-house
than this vale afforded, farther from or nearer to its head, from
a glen-like seclusion overlooking the country at a great elevation between
these two mountain walls.
It reminded me of the homesteads
of the Huguenots, on Staten Island, off the coast of New Jersey.
The hills in the interior of this island, though comparatively low, are
penetrated in various directions by similar sloping valleys on a humble
scale, gradually narrowing and rising to the centre, and at the head
of these the Huguenots, who were the first settlers, placed their
houses quite within the land, in rural and sheltered places, in leafy
recesses where the breeze played with the poplar and the gum-tree, from
which, with equal security in calm and storm, they looked out through
a widening vista, over miles of forest and stretching salt marsh,
to the Huguenot's Tree, an old elm on the shore at whose root they
had landed, and across the spacious outer bay of New York to Sandy Hook
and the Highlands of Neversink, and thence over leagues of the Atlantic,
perchance to some faint vessel in the horizon, almost a day's sail
on her voyage to that Europe whence they had come. When walking in
the interior there, in the midst of rural scenery, where there was
as little to remind me of the ocean as amid the New Hampshire hills, I
have suddenly, through a gap, a cleft or "clove road," as the Dutch
settlers called it, caught sight of a ship under full sail, over
a field of corn, twenty or thirty miles at sea. The effect was similar,
since I had no means of measuring distances, to seeing a painted ship passed
backwards and forwards through a magic-lantern.
But to return to the mountain. It seemed
as if he must be the most singular and heavenly minded man whose
dwelling stood highest up the valley. The thunder had rumbled at
my heels all the way, but the shower passed off in another direction, though
if it had not, I half believed that I should get above it. I at length
reached the last house but one, where the path to the summit diverged
to the right, while the summit itself rose directly in front. But
I determined to follow up the valley to its head, and then find my own
route up the steep as the shorter and more adventurous way. I had thoughts
of returning to this house, which was well kept and so nobly placed,
the next day, and perhaps remaining a week there, if I could have
entertainment. Its mistress was a frank and hospitable young woman,
who stood before me in a dis-habille, busily and unconcernedly combing
her long black hair while she talked, giving her head the necessary
toss with each sweep of the comb, with lively, sparkling eyes, and
full of interest in that lower world from which I had come, talking
all the while as familiarly as if she had known me for years, and reminding
me of a cousin of mine. She at first had taken me for a student from Williamstown,
for they went by in parties, she said, either riding or walking,
almost every pleasant day, and were a pretty wild set of fellows;
but they never went by the way I was going. As I passed the last
house, a man called out to know what I had to sell, for seeing my knapsack,
he thought that I might be a pedler who was taking this unusual route
over the ridge of the valley into South Adams. He told me that it
was still four or five miles to the summit by the path which I had
left, though not more than two in a straight line from where I was, but
that nobody ever went this way; there was no path, and I should find
it as steep as the roof of a house. But I knew that I was more used
to woods and mountains than he, and went along through his cow-yard,
while he, looking at the sun, shouted after me that I should not get
to the top that night. I soon reached the head of the valley, but as I
could not see the summit from this point, I ascended a low mountain
on the opposite side, and took its bearing with my compass. I at
once entered the woods, and began to climb the steep side of the
mountain in a diagonal direction, taking the bearing of a tree every dozen
rods. The ascent was by no means difficult or unpleasant, and occupied
much less time than it would have taken to follow the path. Even
country people, I have observed, magnify the difficulty of travelling
in the forest, and especially among mountains. They seem to lack
their usual common sense in this. I have climbed several higher mountains
without guide or path, and have found, as might be expected, that
it takes only more time and patience commonly than to travel the
smoothest highway. It is very rare that you meet with obstacles in
this world which the humblest man has not faculties to surmount. It is
true we may come to a perpendicular precipice, but we need not jump
off nor run our heads against it. A man may jump down his own cellar
stairs or dash his brains out against his chimney, if he is mad.
So far as my experience goes, travellers generally exaggerate the
difficulties of the way. Like most evil, the difficulty is imaginary; for
what's the hurry? If a person lost would conclude that after all
he is not lost, he is not beside himself, but standing in his own
old shoes on the very spot where he is, and that for the time being he
will live there; but the places that have known him, they are lost,—how
much anxiety and danger would vanish. I am not alone if I stand by
myself. Who knows where in space this globe is rolling? Yet we will
not give ourselves up for lost, let it go where it will.
I made my way steadily upward in a straight
line through a dense undergrowth of mountain laurel, until the trees
began to have a scraggy and infernal look, as if contending with
forest goblins, and at length I reached the summit, just as the sun was
setting. Several acres here had been cleared, and were covered with
rocks and stumps, and there was a rude observatory in the middle
which overlooked the woods. I had one fair view of the country before
the sun went down, but I was too thirsty to waste any light in viewing
the prospect, and set out directly to find water. First, going down
a well-beaten path for half a mile through the low scrubby wood,
till I came to where the water stood in the tracks of the horses
which had carried travellers up, I lay down flat, and drank these dry,
one after another, a pure, cold, spring-like water, but yet I could
not fill my dipper, though I contrived little siphons of grass-stems,
and ingenious aqueducts on a small scale; it was too slow a process.
Then remembering that I had passed a moist place near the top, on my way
up, I returned to find it again, and here, with sharp stones and
my hands, in the twilight, I made a well about two feet deep, which
was soon filled with pure cold water, and the birds too came and
drank at it. So I filled my dipper, and, making my way back to the observatory,
collected some dry sticks, and made a fire on some flat stones which had
been placed on the floor for that purpose, and so I soon cooked my
supper of rice, having already whittled a wooden spoon to eat it
with.
I sat up during the evening, reading by
the light of the fire the scraps of newspapers in which some party
had wrapped their luncheon; the prices current in New York and Boston,
the advertisements, and the singular editorials which some had seen fit
to publish, not foreseeing under what critical circumstances they would
be read. I read these things at a vast advantage there, and it seemed
to me that the advertisements, or what is called the business part
of a paper, were greatly the best, the most useful, natural, and
respectable. Almost all the opinions and sentiments expressed were so little
considered, so shallow and flimsy, that I thought the very texture of the
paper must be weaker in that part and tear the more easily. The advertisements
and the prices current were more closely allied to nature, and were
respectable in some measure as tide and meteorological tables are;
but the reading-matter, which I remembered was most prized down below,
unless it was some humble record of science, or an extract from some old
classic, struck me as strangely whimsical, and crude, and one-idea'd, like
a school-boy's theme, such as youths write and after burn. The opinions
were of that kind that are doomed to wear a different aspect to-morrow,
like last year's fashions; as if mankind were very green indeed,
and would be ashamed of themselves in a few years, when they had
outgrown this verdant period. There was, moreover, a singular disposition
to wit and humor, but rarely the slightest real success; and the
apparent success was a terrible satire on the attempt; the Evil Genius
of man laughed the loudest at his best jokes. The advertisements,
as I have said, such as were serious, and not of the modern quack kind,
suggested pleasing and poetic thoughts; for commerce is really as interesting
as nature. The very names of the commodities were poetic, and as
suggestive as if they had been inserted in a pleasing poem,—Lumber,
Cotton, Sugar, Hides, Guano, Logwood. Some sober, private, and original
thought would have been grateful to read there, and as much in harmony
with the circumstances as if it had been written on a mountain-top; for
it is of a fashion which never changes, and as respectable as hides
and logwood, or any natural product. What an inestimable companion
such a scrap of paper would have been, containing some fruit of a
mature life. What a relic! What a recipe! It seemed a divine invention,
by which not mere shining coin, but shining and current thoughts, could
be brought up and left there.
As it was cold, I collected quite a pile
of wood and lay down on a board against the side of the building,
not having any blanket to cover me, with my head to the fire, that I
might look after it, which is not the Indian rule. But as it grew colder
towards midnight, I at length encased myself completely in boards,
managing even to put a board on top of me, with a large stone on
it, to keep it down, and so slept comfortably. I was reminded, it is
true, of the Irish children, who inquired what their neighbors did who
had no door to put over them in winter nights as they had; but I
am convinced that there was nothing very strange in the inquiry.
Those who have never tried it can have no idea how far a door, which
keeps the single blanket down, may go toward making one comfortable. We
are constituted a good deal like chickens, which taken from the hen,
and put in a basket of cotton in the chimney-corner, will often peep
till they die, nevertheless, but if you put in a book, or anything
heavy, which will press down the cotton, and feel like the hen, they go
to sleep directly. My only companions were the mice, which came to
pick up the crumbs that had been left in those scraps of paper; still,
as everywhere, pensioners on man, and not unwisely improving this
elevated tract for their habitation. They nibbled what was for them;
I nibbled what was for me. Once or twice in the night, when I looked up,
I saw a white cloud drifting through the windows, and filling the
whole upper story.
This observatory was a building of considerable
size, erected by the students of Williamstown College, whose buildings
might be seen by daylight gleaming far down in the valley. It would
be no small advantage if every college were thus located at the base of
a mountain, as good at least as one well-endowed professorship. It
were as well to be educated in the shadow of a mountain as in more
classical shades. Some will remember, no doubt, not only that they
went to the college, but that they went to the mountain. Every visit
to its summit would, as it were, generalize the particular information
gained below, and subject it to more catholic tests.
I was up early and perched upon the top
of this tower to see the daybreak, for some time reading the names
that had been engraved there, before I could distinguish more distant
objects. An "untamable fly" buzzed at my elbow with the same nonchalance
as on a molasses hogshead at the end of Long Wharf. Even there I must attend
to his stale humdrum. But now I come to the pith of this long digression.—As
the light increased I discovered around me an ocean of mist, which
by chance reached up exactly to the base of the tower, and shut out
every vestige of the earth, while I was left floating on this fragment
of the wreck of a world, on my carved plank, in cloudland; a situation
which required no aid from the imagination to render it impressive.
As the light in the east steadily increased, it revealed to me more
clearly the new world into which I had risen in the night, the new
terra firma perchance of my future life. There was not a crevice left
through which the trivial places we name Massachusetts or Vermont or New
York could be seen, while I still inhaled the clear atmosphere of
a July morning,—if it were July there. All around beneath me was
spread for a hundred miles on every side, as far as the eye could
reach, an undulating country of clouds, answering in the varied swell of
its surface to the terrestrial world it veiled. It was such a country
as we might see in dreams, with all the delights of paradise. There
were immense snowy pastures, apparently smooth-shaven and firm, and
shady vales between the vaporous mountains; and far in the horizon I could
see where some luxurious misty timber jutted into the prairie, and
trace the windings of a water-course, some unimagined Amazon or Orinoko,
by the misty trees on its brink. As there was wanting the symbol,
so there was not the substance of impurity, no spot nor stain. It
was a favor for which to be forever silent to be shown this vision. The
earth beneath had become such a flitting thing of lights and shadows
as the clouds had been before. It was not merely veiled to me, but
it had passed away like the phantom of a shadow,... and this new
platform was gained. As I had climbed above storm and cloud, so by successive
days' journeys I might reach the region of eternal day, beyond the
tapering shadow of the earth; ay,
"Heaven itself
shall slide,
And roll away, like melting stars that
glide
Along their oily threads."
But when its own sun began to rise on
this pure world, I found myself a dweller in the dazzling halls of
Aurora, into which poets have had but a partial glance over the eastern
hills, drifting amid the saffron-colored clouds, and playing with the rosy
fingers of the Dawn, in the very path of the Sun's chariot, and sprinkled
with its dewy dust, enjoying the benignant smile, and near at hand
the far-darting glances of the god. The inhabitants of earth behold
commonly but the dark and shadowy under-side of heaven's pavement; it is
only when seen at a favorable angle in the horizon, morning or evening,
that some faint streaks of the rich lining of the clouds are revealed.
But my muse would fail to convey an impression of the gorgeous tapestry
by which I was surrounded, such as men see faintly reflected afar
off in the chambers of the east. Here, as on earth, I saw the gracious
god
"Flatter the mountain-tops with
sovereign eye, * * *
Gilding pale streams with heavenly alchemy."
But never here did "Heaven's sun" stain
himself. But, alas, owing, as I think, to some unworthiness in myself,
my private sun did stain himself, and
"Anon permit the basest clouds to ride
With ugly wrack on his celestial face,"—
for before the god had reached the zenith
the heavenly pavement rose and embraced my wavering virtue, or rather
I sank down again into that "forlorn world," from which the celestial
sun had hid his visage,—
"How may a worm that crawls along
the dust,
Clamber the azure mountains, thrown so high,
And fetch from thence thy fair idea just,
That in those sunny courts doth hidden lie,
Clothed with such light as blinds the angel's eye?
How may weak mortal ever hope to file
His unsmooth tongue, and his deprostrate style?
O, raise thou from his corse thy now entombed exile!"
In the preceding evening I had seen the summits
of new and yet higher mountains, the Catskills, by which I might
hope to climb to heaven again, and had set my compass for a fair
lake in the southwest, which lay in my way, for which I now steered,
descending the mountain by my own route, on the side opposite to that by
which I had ascended, and soon found myself in the region of cloud
and drizzling rain, and the inhabitants affirmed that it had been
a cloudy and drizzling day wholly.
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